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[take]
[#i guess it doesnt matter
# whether i deserve this or not
# you dont deserve this either
# jonesy… look
# point is…
# i don’t know what the point is]
[her/his]
[#how do you think its been # over and over and over #over and over an
# just listening to me talk # and over and over and # and over and ove]
[ass]
[#remember how i was talking
# about how the box is in the field
# guess it lasts forever]
[to]
[#take his ass to the timeloop #take his ass to the timeloop #take his ass to the timeloop
# take her ass to the timeloop #take her ass to the timeloop #take her ass to the timeloop […] ]
[the]
[#what do you mean accident ?
# what do you mean accident ? […] ]
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[t i m e l o o p]
[#take his ass to the timeloop
# what do you mean accident?
# i'll be sure to Remember that
# take her ass to the timeloop […]]
take his ass to the timeloop
i'm bored again but that's nothing new. i've counted the freckles on your face (51), and the splotches on the wall (178,320, in the six foot section of the world i can see in from of me before it reds out), and my eyes aren't good enough to count the hairs on your head.
take her ass to the timeloop
i lose myself in a fantasy for a moment, listening to the distant sound of someone talking; words, back when this was all new. memories of other voices are distant and half-imagined. i know academically other people can talk because you told me about yourself once, and the person i can't see told me about the accident
take his ass to the timeloop
maybe it's a memory or maybe it's a dream, but i think about a beach. a world where the horizon isn't red, where the infinite crashing of the vast ocean repeats. i think i was a beach guy.
take her ass to the timeloop
there's things i used to think about that i don't think about anymore because there's no point. you know all this anyways, i've told you so many times, but. the man who is standing to my right, who i can't see.
take his ass to the timeloop
i wonder about him sometimes, even now. i know, i know, there's no point, there's no point, but i wonder what runs through his mind. is he the lucky one?
take her ass to the timeloop
you and i have each other. he just has my right ear. my right hand, my best friend, the great big fuck up. but there's no point, there's no point, there's no point. i'll never know.
what do you mean accident?
did you know did you know did you know know know that light isn't the fastest thing in the universe? everything without mass goes that fast, lights just what we see. i was told that at some point, and i don't remember anymore why or when. but the fact stuck in my head, little scrap of glass, pearl to my brain oyster to you right now.
what do you mean accident?
i'm sorry i'm having trouble staying lucid right now. i'm having a bad timeloop. if i'm totally honest i've been having a bad time of it for a while now.
what do you mean accident?
i can always tell you about it though because whenever i have a bad timeloop i just look at your eyes and the flowers in your hair, and you make me feel better. how wonderful that i'm looking at you now and always will be.
take her ass to the timeloop
i want to pretend for a while, and i do, and i think about a memory or a fantasy or whatever about you and me and the man to my right at a beach with tall trees and rocky sand and water and the box that made all this possible and its fun! to think, to remember a place that's different. i'm so glad you're here with me.
take his ass to the timeloop
seagull screaming interspersed with the words that frame the world, maybe hotdogs, other people? and we'd sit there on the rocks and it'd be too too cold but we'd tough it out. i'm very tough. you remember right?
i'll be sure to Remember that
eating is fun. its gotten a bit fuzzy but thats a good thing because we'd all be dead if we needed to eat. we'll never die. i think i liked eating glass. beach glass was free candy in that far off before before before, all pastel colors and sharp razor bite. i'd give you some and you'd bite it happy and we'd remember it for ever ever ever
take his ass to the timeloop
there's nothing to do but count and pretend and remember and you, but that's okay. we have forever, so i can pretend a lot. being someone other than who i am, you're someone other than who you are. you're already two things, him and her, and that's so interesting to me.
take her ass to the timeloop
lets pretend that no no that's boring. i'll go back to counting counting counting. I'll try and count the hairs on your head again, even if my eyes aren't good enough. the effort's worthwhile, and your hair is so pretty-handsome-pretty anyways.
take his ass to the
i love the flowers in your hair, all red and white.
take - ass to the timeloop
i've pretended to be different people before. maybe i'm pretending to be someone else now; it's hard to remember. if it was important, would i have forgotten? we have enough time to figure it out though.
take - - to the timeloop
i'm taking a break from counting your hairs, or pretending to count your hairs, or pretending pretending pretending and thinking about who i want to be next time. maybe i'll count the spots on the wall and the freckles on your face and the shell casings on the ground again.
take - - - timeloop
i meet your eyes again and i wonder, not for the first time, what you're thinking, how much i want to tell you and have told you and will tell you am telling you. do the flowers make it hard to pretend?
- - - timeloop
the open cavity in your skull spreads flowers of grey and red and white all across the air, across your hair, across the red horizon and white walls that bound our perfect world. i count the pieces of you, displayed forever, swirling in violent beauty-handsome-beauty. 47, 48, 49. your gun is useless on the ground, defanged by eternity in four seconds. you meet my eyes and i'm so so happy.
- -?
i have everything i want here and now and forever. i pretend, i remember, i count, i look at you.
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god couldn't build a better heaven.
- – timeloop - –
i love you.
– timeloop - –
i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you i love you i love you
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iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
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